lay off it?

I'm thinking if I land a new job soon, which I need to do, it's time to lay off the salvia for a while. But since I'm still curious to continue the explorations, I have a compromise; my sessions are to be done on the last Friday-evening of each month. This way I should have plenty of time for preparation, and an entire weekend to get back to "normal". Why would I want so much recovery-time? I'm starting to get concerned about possible lasting effects on memory or attention. I feel like I'm in a mild stupor today, and much of this week, as if I were either severely sleep deprived (though I'm not) or otherwise off-balance. There are many factors, like not bothering to take vitamins lately, and having a rather unbalanced diet. Overall I seem fairly healthy though, so I think the major fact is daily experiments with Salvia this week (none today). So I've come to the conclusion that it may be a very bad thing to do daily, and that I should have an absolute limit of once a week, aiming toward 2 to 4 times per year in the long-term. I think the "fear" that drives me to experiment daily is that once I stop doing it daily I might not want to do it again for a long time. That happens sometimes; I go a couple of weeks without trying any, then I keep asking myself if I want to do it again and keep answering "no way; I hate that stuff!" It's hard work doing salvia, and I feel I only do it right now because I have some hard problems to solve, and once they are solved and I'm back fully-engaged in the "game" of life, there will be no need for regular/frequent use of a kappa-opioid agonist. Sure, it's the "red pill", and opens the door to the "other side" of this holo-fractal "matrix" of reality, but all that doesn't matter right now, because as long as I choose to continue playing this "game" of life (and I do), there are some requirements I need to meet, like making money, and doing salvia *really* isn't helping me do that in any apparent way, and might be impairing slightly. What makes me realize this is partly a lingering dizzyness/lightheadedness, and partly a scatterbrained-ness and tendency to pace around and avoid things I should be doing.

Although, there's been the opposite at times. Sometimes I felt like a smoked extract knocked me out of many of the time-wasting activities I was engaged in and shifted me toward something that might/could theoretically be more useful.

I'm still a little undecided because there is somewhere I'm trying to go with this. I want to reach a point of energy-centeredness from which I operate most of the time. A point I might reach, temporarily, with a good dose of DMT. Or maybe there's some sort of meditation or "fractal energetic yoga" (per Martin W. Ball) that can get me in that state. But Martin says the symmetric yoga developed out of the unity-state, not the other way around.

(Later)

I think this almost-drugged-super-tired state I've been in is due to

1. coffee (not today)
   
2. poor sleep
   
3. stress
   
4. diet/mineral/vitamin deficiencies
   

Until I do the things to eliminate those factors, as well as eliminating salvia for a week or two, I won't really know.