Gödel, Escher, Bach

My older brother gave me this book around 20 years ago, and only now am I getting back to reading it. It talks about paradoxes, which often involve contradictions of a sort, such as:

This sentence is false.

Or systems of true statements which collectively form a paradox:

The following sentence is false.
The previous sentence is true.

It reminds me of the many contradictions or seeming paradoxes I seemed to be observing during my self-diagnosed manic state. I would like to return to that state, but under more controlled conditions (or at least not in the middle of the workweek...) I would like to maintain it in a form. Perhaps it is close to the "normal" state of functioning for most people. It seem to me it involved loss of fear. Maybe it had to do with nearly collapsing (heat exhaustion), yet "surviving" the incident, and after that my mind was "tricked" into dropping fear. Almost as if I'd had a few puffs on some good quality pot. (haha...)

Well, I'd better get back to work....

Celia - Trag aer in piept

I played this about 10 times this morning. Trying to figure out how many times before I stop loving the song, but I seem to just like it better after several more playings... Sure, it might be partly that I have the video, and she's about as hot as they get (ha...), but no, it's mostly the song.

Beautiful song.

Lyrics in Romanian and English. I might just have to learn Romanian...

http://www.allthelyrics.com/forum/romanian-lyrics-translation/30401-please-translate-celia-trag-aer-in-piept-in-english.html

Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Ma indrept catre strazi cu soare / I go to streets with sun
Stiu ca nu e drept / I know is not fair
Dar ma-ndepartez incet / But I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert caci ma doare / I cannot forgive you anymore because it hurts me

Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Ma indrept catre strazi cu soare / I go to streets with sun
Stiu ca nu e drept / I know is not fair
Dar ma-ndepartez incet / But I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert caci ma doare / I cannot forgive you anymore because it hurts me

Noaptea ma topeste / Night melts me
Incet alunec spre ea / I slowly slip to her
Simt doar un val de lacrimi / I feel waves of tears
Ce spala fata mea / washing my face
Te vad dar nu ne ajungem / I see you but we don't touch (meet, see many contextual synonims)
Doar noaptea in vis / Only in dreams in the night
Ai cheia ce deschide / You have the key which opens
Un suflet inchis / One locked soul

Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Ma indrept catre strazi cu soare / I go to streets with sun
Stiu ca nu e drept / I know is not fair
Dar ma-ndepartez incet / But I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert caci ma doare / I cannot forgive you anymore because it hurts me

Amintirile se sting usor / Memories are easily extinguishing
Recunosc ca-mi va fi dor / I admit I'll miss
Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert / I cannot forgive you anymore
Caci ma doare... / Because it hurts me

Ca soarele si luna Like the moon and the sun
Noi nu ne intalnim / we never meet
As vrea macar odata / I would lie just once
Noi doi sa stralucim / bouth to shine
Te vad dar nu ne ajungem / I see you but we don't touch (meet, see many contextual synonims)
Doar noaptea in vis / Only in dreams in the night
Ai cheia ce deschide / You have the key which opens
Un suflet inchis / One locked soul

Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Ma indrept catre strazi cu soare / I go to streets with sun
Stiu ca nu e drept / I know is not fair
Dar ma-ndepartez incet / But I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert caci ma doare / I cannot forgive you anymore because it hurts me

Amintirile se sting usor / Memories are easily extinguishing
Recunosc ca-mi va fi dor / I admit I'll miss
Trag aer in piept / I breath
Ma indepartez incet / I go away slowly
Nu mai pot sa te iert / I cannot forgive you anymore
Caci ma doare... / Because it hurts me

Trag aer in piept.... / I breath
Trag aer in piept... / I breath

Stabilized

Probably. As of just a day or two after the episode. And, as I feared during the episode (while I was definitely, in my own perception, talking and thinking fast, ideas and thoughts coming up almost faster than I could process, and calling a few people to talk about things during it all), after the episode of "mania" went away, I practically forgot it existed. I mean, I know I felt different then, and was convinced my mental state was dramatically different, but now (in my "normal" state of mind), it hardly seems like it happened, and that state of mind I was in doesn't seem so strange or abnormal. Partly I think it's that I'm not used to not being depressed, since 99% of the time I am. My only escapes from depression are alcohol (at least 5 or 6 drinks I think; 1 or 2 just makes me mildly drunk but does not sufficiently subdue the depression) or weed. But that stuff doesn't seem to be legal, last I checked, so it's been a while... If only I could have a "normal" brain. Perhaps I destroyed my seratonin neurons that one time I took MDMA (xtc), but I don't really think so. I seem to recall feeling rather depressed or frustrated most of my life, at least since pubescence if not before. It might have to do with some sort of imbalance caused by an inability to properly digest milk or wheat (gluten), but I don't think it's that simple either, because I don't have either of those every day. I do think the doctor who diagnosed me as severely depressed in 2003 was essentially right, though I'm so used to the state of mind that I didn't really realize it.
The funny thing is, I don't act it lately, so I'm not sure all I'm saying is even true (right now). I just know that I swing into a depressed/discouraged/frustrated state of mind sometimes, and sometimes stay there for weeks or months. Right now I am mostly encouraged about my progress at a new job and prospects for continuing there, or heck, if I lose it, my ability to find another.

Ayya Khema: Accepting Oneself

Ayya Khema: Accepting Oneself

[ [ Lie To Me ] ]: *everybody's fool*

[ [ Lie To Me ] ]: *everybody's fool*

Everybody's Fool - The Evanescence Reference

Everybody's Fool - The Evanescence Reference

I have a strange fascination with that band. The music is dark, yet melodic. But I'm a bit hypersensitive to portrayals of negative emotions and their reactions, at times.For example, take this video, "Everybody's fool". The pain expressed by Amy Lee (lead singer of the band) is great, and identifiable to anyone who has ever been lied to in a big way, and made a fool of.But when Amy smashes her hand through the mirror and pulls it back to bandage it up, bleeding profusely, I not only cringe, but almost feel the pain. (As you can imagine, I haven't been watching many horror movies in recent years.)http://evanescencereference.info/wiki/index.php?title=Everybody's_FoolVideoEverybody's FoolThe video, directed by Philip Stolzl, is a live action video that portrays the life of a glamorous superstar (played by Amy Lee) who is really unhappy with the way she portrays herself in the media. She sells Lies consumer products (perfume, pizza, energy drink, and a little doll). Towards the end of the video she expresses deep regret for selling Lies in the first place.The video was filmed in Los Angeles in mid-April 2004. It quickly became a fan favourite. a.. Watch the video on Evanescence.com

The End of the Inflation Scare? - John Mauldin's Outside the Box - InvestorsInsight Publishing

The End of the Inflation Scare? - John Mauldin's Outside the Box - InvestorsInsight Publishing

911 Links - Did eyewitnesses report hearing or seeing bombs and demolitions explosives in and around the towers?

hmm, the other side of the argument
911 Links - Did eyewitnesses report hearing or seeing bombs and demolitions explosives in and around the towers?

www.TruthRing.org » prof-graeme-macqueen-118-witnesses-the-firefighters-testimony-to-explosions-in-the-twin-towers

http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4GZHY_enUS241US241&q=macqueen+118+explosions

118 firefighters reported explosions

http://www.truthring.org/2008/05/17/prof-graeme-macqueen-118-witnesses-the-firefighters-testimony-to-explosions-in-the-twin-towers/

9/11 The Myth and the Reality: Dr. David Ray Griffin

9/11 The Myth and the Reality: Dr. David Ray Griffin: "/11 The Myth and the Reality: Dr. David Ray Griffin - 98 min - Oct 18, 2006
n/a - www.truthring.org

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Composed of two powerful speeches given the masterful Philosopher and Theologist Dr. David Ray Griffin at The Commonwealth Club in San Franc...all » Composed of two powerful speeches given the masterful Philosopher and Theologist Dr. David Ray Griffin at The Commonwealth Club in San Francisco (4/3/06) and at The Grand Lake Theater in Oakland (3/30/06), 9/11: The Myth and The Reality exposes the official story of 9/11 for what it truly is: a sacred myth. Throughout this incredible video, enhanced with forceful images and video segments, Griffin details nine of the most commonly held myths and misconceptions about the events surrounding 9/11 and with logical precision proves the fallacies of each one. Each speech is followed by an in-depth question & answer section featuring hard-hitting questions about 9/11 posed to one of the subject's foremost scholars.«"