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See http://nucleargreen.blogspot.com/ .. a much better blog than mine. Maybe Fukushima should convince us all to switch to PASSIVELY-SAFE molten-salt-reactors! Okay I don't seem to have been posting about Salvia lately. I wasn't using it as much in the past several months, though in recent weeks I seem to be going back to it. I seem to go back to it when I have a strong desire to make some changes in my life, and when I see myself falling back into complacency and old patterns and want to shake myself out of it. Plus I'm thinking of doing another Holotropic Breathwork workshop, and if I'm willing to put up the $150 and a day for that, why not do some work on myself with the help of Salvia. So I'm sensitizing myself with daily hits of plain leaf, and some occasional extract. But I really want to set up the time and place for a more intense trip. I guess I could plan one with a friend to act as my sitter... I really doubt I need a sitter, but if I take enough hits to really "lose it" for more than a few seconds, I guess it may be helpful in reorienting. I have wondered if insights have largely stopped coming because the "spirit of salvia" is annoyed with me for abusing it, partly by occasionally using Salvia in a public place, mixed with alcohol, generally chewed. Last time I did that a doorman wouldn't let me back in the club and wanted me to go around and show my ID to someone at the front door.... I panicked a little and rode my bicycle all the way home (maybe 6 miles). Sure, it isn't illegal, but maybe using any non-prescription substance besides alcohol in a club situation might be considered to be either illegal or improper; I'm not sure. It certainly made me think a lot about that use, and whether it was improper, inappropriate, offensive to the "spirit of Salvia", if there is such a thing. I'm not generally one to intentionally and arbitrarily take on many beliefs, but I can believe there may be a "spirit of salvia" because of the strong feelings of the quite profound-feeling insights early-on. One that I'm reminded of is the "Matrix-like" feeling, that this "reality" we live in isn't quite real and that this is a big secret. I think part of the meaning of this information was that the information is not for everyone, and I really shouldn't be pushing it on people (either the information or the use of Salvia D.) So if there's anything offensive to the spirit of salvia about my activities, it's probably mostly my occasional use in public situations, or even moreso perhaps my tendency to share information or experiences about Salvia without due respect for it, for the experience, and perhaps for the spirit behind the information that is transmitted. Note that the "information" given seems to me to be transmitted largely as feelings or impressions; the communication is definitely non-verbal, and my translation into words is not always correct. That's one thing that makes it hard to write about. There's an extreme eerieness to the feeling of the first strong hit of Salvia D, and I am still sometimes amazed by it when I take a strong-enough hit to totally "lose it" (lose touch with this reality, even if only for a few seconds, as is usually the case with me. I've yet to have strong visionary experiences.) It has occurred to me that the strong visionary experiences may be more possible if I were to make amends with the spirit of Salvia, show it some reverence or respect, and then invite it to show me it's world. I guess I should try that sometime when I'm ready for a strong series of hits. (I doubt any one hit would take me completely "there", since it hasn't seemed to quite make it yet.) (UTShaman says the spirit is male. I don't know; haven't met him/her yet; most seem to think it's female.) I might eventually give up my use of Salvia, though I really don't want to completely because I still think it's extremely useful for loosening up the tight grip of ego patterns and addictions, expecially ones that tend to lead to depression. It could probably help my older brother get unstuck and lose 100 to 150 pounds, because I think that's largely emotional in origin, but it would require his interest and will to change, and besides, he CHOSE his current life of self-destruction (well, getting to 330+ lbs last I knew and being barely able to breathe seems self-destructive to me...), and at whatever level or for whatever reason he chose that path of life, I need to honor it. This is hard, because I tend to judge some behaviors as time-wasting and resource-wasting, but if I see all life as experience because the creator/"god"/all-that-is wants to experience all possibilities (WITH NO JUDGEMENT!), then I should also drop my judgement about paths in life that seem to me to be wasteful. I still think governments shouldn't encourage such behavior so much as it fund it to the extent they do, providing people who could be able-bodied, somewhat-productive individuals with, literally, a free-lunch.