Still mildly frustrated that I didn't sell $4700 worth of options a couple of weeks ago (or at least $2000) but instead got distracted and failed to fill an order, stay out of the market til last week, and make back $10,000 to $50,000 this week by buying a couple dozen options on friday. I *knew* to, didn't I? Somewhere deep down? (I sure wanted to buy on Friday...) But always seem to do the opposite of what I know to do. Anyway, I haven't been very productive since about 1998, so I guess wiping myself out and putting myself $52,000 in debt and in a situation where I don't have rent is a perfect way to force myself to solve these problems. Maybe I'll become homeless in a few days, that might be an interesting experiment while I look for a $30/hr job or better... I'd rather pay my credit cards off faster without having rent to worry about. I shouldn't have to pay rent after putting $600,000 into other people and their property, anyway. 10 acres worth, in total... I guess I should be hiring a lawyer to go after some of that property. But I can't get back the $2 million it's cost me... I guess I should just build a better site than facebook and take over the social-networking world! Or, actually, something more original than that. I have many ideas. I guess I just have to start digging in and trying to implement some of them. Can I do so in time to save myself from a financial crisis? Not really, because I'm already in one.
So this is what having a few leaves this morning takes me to?
Just bring up the same stuff that's on my mind anyway... nothing new. But I'm ranting and raving and practically biting off the head of every contractor that tries to call me about a job opportunity, today. Not good...
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
no news
I haven't been writing new reports lately, because I don't have any new insights to report, or none that seemed particularly profound at the time.
This blog post mentions some of the same the same insights I have had (namely that physical reality is not "real", per se, as insane as that may sound), and overall is a far more interesting blog than I am likely to write anytime soon:
http://unchartedjourney.blogspot.com/2010/08/salvia-insights.html
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I wrote this as a reply to a poorly-written web page.
I hate to cite it because it's really not worth reading, but here it is:
lookthatuponline.com/2010/03/effective-way-of-using-salvia-divinorum-extract/
My reply is below:
Who writes stuff like this? Bad information is worse than no information at all; and this is very poor English and not accurate.
Salvia extract is typically smoked, though vaporization may work as well. Reports of success with vaporization are few; it's generally best to just get a very high strength extract such as 40x or better, and be careful to inhale *all* of the smoke (to conserve extract). Only do this with a sitter present! And be very conservative on your first dose! 1/20th of a gram of 20X extract, breathed in fully through a glass pipe, is generally enough to go quickly into the salvia-trance and lose touch with "normal" reality, as well as forgetting where you are and what you were just doing.
The chewed experience lasts longer and may be easier to understand and integrate. If you can find a good enough price on bulk leaves to feel comfortable chewing them, you might find the experience more interesting and educational. Salvia is a sort of personality-inhibitor. You may find that your body habits and ego-personality may suddenly seem to be gone, and you are left with a dissociated consciousness which is still in your body but seems to no longer be so tightly attached to the body; at least that is my experience. At high doses (of smoked extract), you may see swirling in the field of vision, and other visual effects. The eerie thing about it is that your brain seems to believe that what it is seeing is *real*, and can be nearly traumatized by the confusion. Perhaps this is a result of Salvia showing you something about the energetic nature of the structure of concensus-reality.
Be careful! Some people may become psychotic in this state (out of fear or panic?), at least temporarily.
This blog post mentions some of the same the same insights I have had (namely that physical reality is not "real", per se, as insane as that may sound), and overall is a far more interesting blog than I am likely to write anytime soon:
http://unchartedjourney.blogspot.com/2010/08/salvia-insights.html
==
I wrote this as a reply to a poorly-written web page.
I hate to cite it because it's really not worth reading, but here it is:
lookthatuponline.com/2010/03/effective-way-of-using-salvia-divinorum-extract/
My reply is below:
Who writes stuff like this? Bad information is worse than no information at all; and this is very poor English and not accurate.
Salvia extract is typically smoked, though vaporization may work as well. Reports of success with vaporization are few; it's generally best to just get a very high strength extract such as 40x or better, and be careful to inhale *all* of the smoke (to conserve extract). Only do this with a sitter present! And be very conservative on your first dose! 1/20th of a gram of 20X extract, breathed in fully through a glass pipe, is generally enough to go quickly into the salvia-trance and lose touch with "normal" reality, as well as forgetting where you are and what you were just doing.
The chewed experience lasts longer and may be easier to understand and integrate. If you can find a good enough price on bulk leaves to feel comfortable chewing them, you might find the experience more interesting and educational. Salvia is a sort of personality-inhibitor. You may find that your body habits and ego-personality may suddenly seem to be gone, and you are left with a dissociated consciousness which is still in your body but seems to no longer be so tightly attached to the body; at least that is my experience. At high doses (of smoked extract), you may see swirling in the field of vision, and other visual effects. The eerie thing about it is that your brain seems to believe that what it is seeing is *real*, and can be nearly traumatized by the confusion. Perhaps this is a result of Salvia showing you something about the energetic nature of the structure of concensus-reality.
Be careful! Some people may become psychotic in this state (out of fear or panic?), at least temporarily.
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