Where next with consciousness-development tools?

This blog evolved from talking about an incident in 2008 while working at a small insurance company downtown, when I was overstressed, drinking too much caffeine, not sleeping well, having alcohol at night sometimes further impairing my sleep, until I napped under covers on a hot July day and experienced heat-exhaustion, an panic-attack (called 911), and possibly a manic-low, because clearly (to me) the next day I had a manic-high (mind-racing, everything looked brighter, perhaps even a touch of hypersexuality (desire to interact with others on many levels, though it didn't manifest as any particularly strange behavior to others as far as I know), to a blog about my use of Salvia later on, but now I don't seem to have any reason to write on it. I've half-tried to stay anonymous on here, as seems to make sense if I'm to admit to such things.... Anyway, what next? I don't use Salvia often anymore. I found I could reach the beginnings of the hallucinogenic zone with my cheap ($30) vaporizer, once I learned the technique; about 420 F to 440 F, preheat for about 15 minutes, pack in about four to six leaves, then inhale the mist, and I barely taste it as long as it doesn't ignite. Also, packing some aluminum foil into the whip may help, because by covering the leaves with foil I can prevent direct contact with the hot element which tends to lead to ignition. But it still takes a long time compared to using an extract, so I don't do it often. Only once (recently) did I reach that hallucinogenic zone using the vaporizer. I may attempt again, but I'm far more concerned lately about functionality in everyday life and productivity at work. I'm on "bench-time" right now, so feel it's okay to experiment a bit at times, but am more interested in more practical "experiments", such as my current one of taking a prescription from a doctor for MPH (Ritalin), which does seem to help focus quite considerably. I hope I can get a diagnosis for ADHD or Asperger's which could enable me to take it regularly, because I am rather convinced it could help me at work, to stabilize my job and my career, perhaps even to increase my income when I overcome some challenges I'm still dealing with. My career has been in the doldrums since about 2003 (inconsistent income or employment), even as I lost all the money I had in 1999, though I've just finished my first continuous year (almost 18 months now) with the same employer, so it's looking up. I have many idea about using Haskell or Scala to build a startup, but perhaps that will have to wait until after my next assignment. Perhaps the Indian consulting agency for which I work will find me a new assignment soon. Or maybe I will finally apply for a position programming in Scala, as I had intended to several weeks ago when I lost my last assignment... As for consciousness-exploration activities; I have twice done Holotropic Breathwork with a group, and might try it again, but think it should be possible to do the breathing on my own or with a little supervision from the girlfriend so I'm hesitant to try it again due to the cost. Nevertheless, I think it's been worth it every time, and would consider doing it again. There are other types of breathwork available, and I tried one at a yoga studio once, and might try that again. That was for two hours, and everyone in the group did it simultaneously. I think it was less intense than the 3-hour guided Holotropic session, but perhaps it could still be potentially just as powerful. Again, back to Salvia. It really doesn't give me any obvious-feeling insights most of the time I take it, anymore. Perhaps that's partly because I rarely have extract, and rarely have intense doses that take me into the trance let-alone into the hallucinogenic zone. But I think it may also be that he/she/it (spirit of Salvia, or perhaps my higher-self, or whatever it is that speaks to me in that state of consciousness) has little left to say to me right now. Maybe it's just something to do once or twice a year, and set some specific intentionality about it related to the experience. Maybe most people should just do Salvia once or a few times in their life, or maybe, as I have sometimes though, most people aren't supposed to "know", aren't supposed to do Salvia at all within their incarnation. Because maybe they are supposed to be stuck in whatever belief-system their soul/higher-self has chosen for the incarnation, including the many belief-systems that deny the existence of reincarnation. It certainly felt like a big secret when I first tried 20X extract of Salvia and went into that zone of the trance where I knew I was not my body, and that my consciousness exists outside of the realm of this temporary physical-reality. But as I said, as far as playing the "game" of life, once I understand that is all it is, but want to be reasonably "good" at it, if that's what I think playing the game is about.... Salvia seems to have little to offer to help with those "practical" things of everyday existence. It won't, in-general, make me a faster or better worker, for example, except that I felt it was very useful when I had a lot of emotional stuff going on because Salvia helped me disassociate from all that silly stuff and perhaps I could see it for what it was, the silly stuff of every life... perhaps I could "lighten-up", as Bashar has said at times (while channeled by Darryl Anka ... he is a popular personality on Youtube in some circles), or perhaps I wouldn't lighten-up, but at least I could "reboot" and start over where I was before, coding away like crazy as I was in F# that last month at Expedia, when I was probably freaking out my boss because I was not talking to him well at all, but I was getting the most code done in my life, even if perhaps most of it was useless to him and it all went to waste when I was let go. Okay, again, as I said, not too useful for everyday life... at least, not in that context, though perhaps if I worked on my own at home for a startup it would be more practical to be doing that occasionally, even daily for a while. Heck, anything goes at home, right? But not on the job (I took long walks a few times a week to get away... I had some emotional stuff going on that month and was not interested in engaging with coworkers or my boss very much, unfortunately, in July 2012.) So meditation and/or breathwork might be more useful to me than Salvia, but I do neither on any regular basis. Oh, my last post was about Piracetam? I'm almost disappointed in myself for not continuing to write on here about Piracetam and Noopept. They were both quite effective in my first 3 months of use, or the first two months of use of Noopept. I didn't feel that much from Piracetam alone, but when I got on Noopept and tried some higher doses, say 60mg to 100mg sometimes, I had some strong anxiolytic action, causing me to feel more social, talk to the ladies I was driving to and from work (carpool) more often, and also sometimes I felt I was a bit more awake, more focused, and that everything looked brighter. The fact that everything looked brighter was probably the most surprising effect I noticed, though it wasn't really easy to measure. I guessed that a number of binge-drinking sessions in my late 30s and early 40s might have caused some sort of mild brain-damage that was being fixed or compensated for by noopept, as it broke-up plaques (as it is documented to do). Specifically, it's the cyclo-prolyl-glycine which breaks up the plaques. Anyway, I was so excited by the dramatic effects of noopept for a while that I think it was one reason I began to lose interest in Salvia (besides the loss of obvious "insights" from the Salvia sessions.) And Salvia just isn't so necessary anymore; it told me what it needed to. But although I take small amounts of noopept fairly regularly now, especially as a hangover-prevention remedy (it seems very effective for that!), I don't feel that it does much anymore. Maybe I'll try some other 'racetams (ani-, oxy-, prami-, etc), but Noopept is cheaper and so effective at first that I've been hesitant to try. For now, I'm going with a recommendation from some unconventional sources to try Ritalin, and hope that that is what will have the most benefit for me at this time (besides proper diet, more exercise, fish oils, more coconut oil, etc.)